February 26, 2004
Morning all. Well, we got a rush biopsy done last night and the tumor is malignant. Lymph nodes surrounded are somewhat affected as well. I'm not sure what from here. The surgeon is recommending surgery to remove the affected areas, but I think my parents are going to talk to a couple of specialists before making any decisions on where we will go from here. It remains to be seen how progressed the cancer is throughout the lymph nodes. There could still be good news here...we pray that the lymph node progression is limited. That would be unbelieveable. Chad's health insurance will not be paying for any of this, because the cancer was a pre-existing condition prior to his beginning his current job. We just need a lot of prayers. That's all I'm asking. Thanks for all the calls and emails as well...I am very blessed to have such wonderful family and friends.
One of my primary concerns at this point in the journey was finances. My family was never wealthy by any means, but we are certainly blessed and I never wanted for anything. However, I knew enough to understand that the medical bills that could arise from this illness would be staggering, and at the very least change our futures drastically. It is not my intention to make a statement or point about health care reform. I vote, but otherwise do my best to avoid politics. I've had to come to the conclusion that it's all in God's hands, and I trust Him...knowing He will never forsake His own.
I would like to testify to that today.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;
His mercies never come to an end.
They are new every morning;
great is Thy faithfulness.
"The Lord is my portion," says my soul,
"therefore I will hope in Him." - Lamentations 3:22-24
Very quietly and miraculously, new legislation on pre-existing conditions was passed by Congress just months before Chad's diagnosis that made my financial concerns obsolete. Legislation was passed...seemingly just for us...before we ever even knew we needed it. He is faithful, and that's reason I am compelled to share. I want to simply testify of the lengths and depths that He will go to for His own. Chad's medical bills were nearly $2mm dollars by the time it was all over. It took an Act of Congress to save us...DONE. Nothing is too great for Him, the great I AM. HE IS...all I need....
"The Lord is my portion."
Literally. Stop and soak that up, because it's the absolute truth and the sincere knowledge of it will change your world in every way. Everyday, most often without my even knowing it, He is in the business of protecting me...you...His children. One of the greatest comforts I carry is the knowledge that nothing comes upon me without the Hand of God Almighty allowing it...and allowing it only because it can be used in some way to bring and honor and glory to Him. That knowledge...that'll change the way you look at your day.
Great is Thy faithfulness, O God, my Father...morning by morning new mercies I see...all I hath needed, Thy hand hath provided...Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord...unto me...